I practically skipped into the office today. I have had so many great and exciting things go on, plus I knew I had made some significant changes in the last month!
- I’m wearing size 10 jeans, (I haven’t worn that size since I was about 20) I actually was trying them on, and since I usually expected a feeling of extreme snugness (is that a word), I literally gasped when I was able to put them on, and I almost
fainted when I zipped them up and didn’t have a muffin top threatening to spill all my secret tucked in fat. Most of my secret tucked in fat no longer resides there.
- I ran my first 5k and placed 57th out of 217! Haaaay! I actually printed it out to post for motivation.. I can’t wait to run another!! Oh, and according to my Nike Running App, I ran over 40 miles last month! If you runners have it, add me!!! I would love some motivation and competition!
- My overall mood is better! I am so much more confident in my appearance, and about everything in my life! I love my life, I love everything that is happening, it just feels awesome being me!
- I feel like a BOSS! We were jumping rope this morning, which I love, and all I could think about is how f’ing dangerous I am going to be on the ballfields this year. I will finally have the endurance to play in the outfield and chase down fly balls again! I will have the strength to throw home, I’m gonna be that girl out there with the fro that they back up when the see go up to bat!!!
My weigh-in went just as great as I imagined it would. When I saw the number on the scale, I yelled, “TAKE THAT”. I’m not sure who I was saying that to, but it just came out. I am down 7lbs from last month, and I have lost some inches! My blood pressure went from 130/90 to 110/70, and that sinus infection that I had for over a month is finally gone! Oh, and another thing: My BMI is 29.4!
My blood sugar has been a bit of a struggle for me lately, so we are trying something new. New meds that I inject once a week should stabilize my sugars, which spike in my sleep. It also assists with weight loss, so that’s a plus! I can’t wait until my body can regulate on its own, but I’m going to work this month to make sure I get closer to that goal.
I was so proud, so happy that I started crying there in the office.
I kept repeating to myself, it’s working. It’s actually working…. It’s actually working… This is going to really happen to me.
This feeling of pride is so new to me. When I was younger I wasn’t familiar with humility, but I found it hard to get too excited about things because I always expected it to end before I was ready. Or it never started.
For years I have been so proud of everyone close to me, friends, family, husband, baby.. I felt like an urchin in comparison to everyone else around me for a number of reasons. I am surrounded by a lot of great, successful people and never actually considered myself one of them until now.
Basically I learned today that when you work hard at something, good things happen.